I have to give up

I will never find how relaxed I feel until I give up the idea of going for the master degree.

I have been determined to go for master degree for a long time. I believe that the chance is much fatter to a postgraduate than just a college student. Taking everything into consideration, I have the plan decidedly. This winter holliday, however, transformed my idea.

I always long for a peaceful and harmonious family,but there is a problem in our family which maybe never be solved. It could be a miracle if my mother gets along well with my grandfather. I tried every means to make them sit together, to reconcile them, but it is vain. Hopelessness sourounds me, and the problem often hangs on my mind.

A little trivals can confused me very much, let alone the big problem. I can just sit still, thinking something for half an hour, even an hour, wasting time. Many things including something between friends, lovers, classmates often give me a hadache, and make me not concentrate on my study. Therefore, the life, going for master, does not fit me.

I have to give it up.